What a relaxing evening Seth and I had last night. We had a family cook-out at my brothers house. Just sat and ate. Then smores for dessert. Seth had his friend Jake spend the night. Jake is a good kid, I'm glad Seth has good kids to hang around with. That is one less worry I have.

Not much on tap for today. Maybe try and do a little laundry. It is such a nice day here in Ohio. The sun is shinning, temp is about 84. We don't get many days like this in April. I hope we don't pay for it later.

Right now Seth is with his mom. It's hard for me when he goes with her, even for a little bit. I don't know what I will do when he reach's college age and moves out. I try not to think about those things. I try to give him a normal life, but it isn't normal. I think that one day he will resent me for having the MD, maybe even hate me for it. I love my boy more than anything but feelings come, and he won't be able to help it. He has dealt with this his whole life. Did it matter? Does it matter now? Will it matter later? Sometimes I think to much and don't like what I think. The house is quiet right now. No sounds of Xbox 360, the fridge door shutting, "Dad, can I have a pepsi", He will return soon, but for now, it's the quiet.